I work at an Internet Service Provider (ISP) in Dubai, UAE. The company is owned by my father. He currently owns over 25% of the shares. It's a very successful business and he has been there for years but recently wanted to sell some of his share holdings. Some people are saying that when you work for someone else, it makes your life miserable. As a result, of this, he is considering selling all or part of his shares.


I have always felt sorry for him but never knew how to get rid of him. In 2017, as my dad was getting older and becoming more and more stressed by job changes at our home complex, he decided that he wanted to use his retirement funds to buy a new car. To do this he had to sell one of his shares - something I've read in the news. If he sells that one, I will be able to gain the income I needed to make some additional costs to help with the car. For me anyway, it's not too big of an amount. But from then on, we have to decide whether to have that cash flow from my dad selling the shares or whatever was left after he sold would have to go towards paying new car insurance. This all sounds so much better than working for someone else!


My Dad also loves traveling. When he travels, he loves seeing sights and visiting places because it keeps him happy. While he's touring countries in Europe and Asia, he often gets bored of sitting in traffic jams. Also, I think that many times he would look around for new interests or new experiences to try on. He enjoys hiking, cycling, and scuba diving.


I asked myself what I’m missing out on when he doesn't like traveling so much anymore. Not being able to see the world from a different perspective is something I can't take away from him. Travelling isn’t really about us anymore, it’s about the world outside and seeing all the amazing wildlife in these unknown regions of the world. Even though he might not be able to travel as often as he'd like, his desire to visit places remains the same. Just like my other brother, he loves the outdoors too. Maybe, it is just us who have lost out and we are simply adapting and learning from each other. Either way, I hope that he continues to have fun. Because if that's not enough, he has seen everything he could see in every country in the world and made many beautiful memories along the way, some good. I can only imagine what he would have done had he been able to travel to places more often.


If I were to work for him now, I wouldn’t have the opportunity to explore the world for myself. That has always been a thing we were missing out on together. All I can do for him would be to look at my pictures that he didn’t grow up with and try to pick those things up again. But I don't think working for him will give me any kind of satisfaction. Because what do I get for doing something I love? Money? No! Which means that he has no idea about ‘me’, which means that I'm nothing but just another number. And even worse, I've grown up knowing nothing about him any longer. Does that mean you want him to leave you? Do I tell others we have to stay silent about anything related to my dad? I guess it's tough. But I hope that I'm making his time worthwhile and maybe giving him someone to spend time with. It isn’t only unfair but it seems really cruel to deny him that opportunity to explore what this world is really about. So when I say that being honest with myself is the best decision I can make. I'm sure all this is true and I don't know why I still have it. What I do know, however, is that I need to get over him. I need to move past a part that I've been avoiding for years since I was a kid. Only time will tell whether that happens or it stays. And I have to do it now. Otherwise, it'll be long before he sees those things that give meso much pleasure and joy. So when you're reading this next paragraph it should sound a bit harsh because I'm trying to hold onto this feeling for myself, but I hope that it helps others too. It's nice to be able to enjoy the journey alongside him.